“Who is like the Lord our God,
who is seated on high,
who looks far down
upon the heavens and the earth?
He raises the poor from the dust,
and lifts the needy from the ash heap.”
More than anything right now I am learning what a blessing it is to be poor, needy, and broken. So often in our society, we strive so much for independence and security that we never give God the chance to show himself faithful. I often wonder why it is that God doesn’t provide for me, but so rarely do I even get out of the way long enough for him to step in. But once I let myself walk out on that limb, once I leave what’s familiar and plunge into the depths of the unknown, that’s where he shows up. It seems that the only danger in this life is to cling to the tree trunk of the known, desparately holding onto stability that wanes with each coming season. It may be frightening, but it is far safer to let go of false securities and fall into the arms of the inventor of seasons. Then, and only then, can we embrace each season in all its brilliance.
Long story short, God provides exactly what I need, exactly when I need it. And it always seems to come from unexpected places.
i know this blog is lame.
there are just so many thoughts, so few words, and not enough time.
please don’t give up on me though. i’ll write something amazing soon. or something not so amazing. but…it will be something.
i’m a nanny for a 3 year-old boy named ethan. he brings joy to my heart numerous times a day. when i ask him what he wants for snack, he usually replies either, “Cat food”, “the cat”, or “poop”.
ethan’s mom is about to have another baby in a few weeks. the other day, she asked ethan what he wanted his new baby sister to be named.
he quickly replied, “CHICKEN NUGGET!”
well, well, well…
for whatever reason, i have decided to re-enter the world of cyber journaling, . well, i suppose you could say it’s because i have recently been faced with the fact that my world is rapidly changing and many of the people i know and love right now will soon be thousands of miles away from me. so…i figure i had better learn to keep up with them in some way (or you, if you are one of them and are reading this), even if it means swallowing my pride and using the internet to do so.
with that said…
there have been so many changes for me this year, and the changing has only begun. there have been deaths and rebirths, losses and gains. my only stability is Christ, my rest, who brings life from death and peace in chaos. sometime in the future i hope to write about some of the events that have taken place in the last year or so. right now is not that time. but i will leave you with these words, from a pretty kickass nun named st. maria faustina kowalska.
“Jesus, friend of a lonely heart, You are my haven, you are my peace. You are my salvation, You are my serenity in moments of struggle and amidst an ocean of doubts. You are the bright ray that lights up the path of my life. You are everything to a lonely soul. You understand the soul even though it remains silent. You know our weaknesses, and like a good physician, You comfort and heal, sparing us sufferings–expert that you are.”